Saturday afternoon...

I've spent most of my afternoon looking for nice things online. I've found a bunch of ansolutely amazing blogs in english, italian and portuguese, I've found wonderful shoes online, and realized that even though I'm not gonna be able to fufill every single shopping wish I have, I deserve a little bit of spoiling every now and then. I definitely do.

So... before I post here all the gorgeous things I found today, I'm assembling a couple of wishlists.

One of them is a list of books, cds and dvs I really love but never got the courage to pay for.

The other consists of beautiful clothes and shoes i'd absolutely love to wear and, again, was never brave enough to buy.

Yeah, I think I'm doing it this time...

New old connections.

The day before yesterday I made contact with someone I hadn’t really seen or talked to in 4 years. I found Leticia on André’s profile on facebook and decided to give it a try. I added her as a friend and sent her a message. I just felt like it has been way too long and there’s no good reason for it anymore. We talked a little and the result is that we both agree we could try again and meet sometime. If I could choose, we would do something tomorrow, but as usual she’s too busy for that. I told her as soon as she has some free time we can do something.
It’s weird to talk to her again. We’ve spent so much time not talking that I don’t really know what to do. Or say. I just missed her. There was no other person I could talk so freely. Ever. All the other girls are just… girls. They are just the same. They care about things I don’t, They talk about things I don’t really wanna hear, they want me to say stuff I don’t necessarily think. I kinda hate it. I miss being able to really give my own opinion. I don’t know many people who allow me to do it. Most of the people I know just tell me how “boring”/”silly”/”whatever” the things I like are. I don’t like it when I have to think before I say what I think. Especially when the thinking involves “who am I talking to????”. Aff. I need some new people around me. Or some old people who can show some respect.

Well, that's it for today. And also I've been getting more and more certain about the fact that I have waaaay more energy than I'm able to spend. And it really gets in my nerves by the end of the day.
Need to do something about it!

Fashion blogs.

Sometimes (if not most of the times...) I feel really sorry about living in brazil. There are many reasons why I feel this, but lately the main one has been the shopping.

I recently figured out why people wear so many cool stuff in other countries. I realized that the most important and cool brands don't necessarily cost an arm and a leg out of Brazil. And I envy that. Especially when I bump into such cool blogs, like LeBlogDeBetty (www.leblogdebetty.com).
Betty is a french girl and she has the most beautiful pictures of herself wearing cool clothes in her everyday life. I love her clothes. Especially her boots. They are all so beautiful... Sigh...

Oh,well, I'll keep looking for beautiful things to cheer up my weekend.

Limits.

As a kid, I used to be soooo shy. Some of it hasn't changed much over the years but I've learned a lot about not caring about what other people think.
But the problem is that I can't learn how to deal with my own thoughts and assumptions. It's easy to ignore what people think. You just have to hold your head high and not hear what they say. But when you're limited by your own mind, things get much harder. I've been really sad in the last few days, and for some reason I haven't been able to change it. To make myself feel better. Do you have any idea how hard it is??

Today I had to go out so I tried to go to a few stores in the hope of finding some cool clothes (I want to buy some new ones so I can feel less guilty about giving away the old ones) but I couldn't get a single piece!! I either didn't like them or didn't have the courage to go inside the store, try them on and everything. What's going on?? I've always had some trouble buying things, but now it's getting way out of control...
And I hate it.

I'm trying to find things I like and to convince myself that I deserve them. Maybe I should work a little harder on some aspects, but I know I deserve it!!!

Well, I'm getting there. Somehow I will.



PS: I hate my internet connection... It keeps coming and going. Urgh!